FALLEN TEARS

One thing, one feeling,

The rolling ears,

The falling tears,

When I remember…….

Why do I feel,

That’s all done and

                   Coming back again……

Why do I see,

                    That the world so filled with undesirable pain….

Why thou cry?

Why thee heart breaks?

Again, again and again…..!!!!

                                                                        without wax...

                                                                                         TRIDIB

Good Bye

There never seemed a reason,

                Never an excuse that really mattered,

Only a brief confrontation that all I desired,

               Still that dead soul never flattered....

Maybe a rock could have been made mine,

               Maybe a wild snake tamed with so much care,

All this futile attempt to get near her,

              And she went away without a courtesy 'good bye'....

                                                                                             without wax...

                                                                                                            TRIDIB

Answer please

Someone tell me, why is she so brutal....

Someone tell me, why is she so arrogant....

Someone tell me, why my love lacks the pull....

Someone tell me, why i can't keep her thoughts distant....

Is my dreaming her the fault?

Is giving my heart away the guilt?

Then who commanded my punishment so severe?

Who approved her to be my punisher?

Whenever I want to trust her,

Why does she break my heart again?

Whenever I want to get immersed in her love,

Why does she break my dream again?

            Will someone please tell me why i'm so lost?

            Will someone please tell me why my world is breaking so fast?

                                                                                     without wax...

                                                                                                    TRIDIB

COME BACK

Come dear, come back

                Come back to me my love….come back

Come back,

                    To show your anger on me

Come back,

                    To scold me once more.

The world without you

                                       seems so barren,

The words without your presence

                                       feels so dry,

Even in the air I breath

                 I feel no life,

Even in the broad daylight

                 I see only darkness.

Why are you so silent, my love?

           What did I do to make you so sad?

Maybe I wouldn’t repeat what I did

             Only if you say, why you are so mad…..

Far away from me, into another life,

Would you be really happy without me?

Ask yourself, my heart, don’t you want it….

Me with you, isn’t what you want to see?

Why do you, then , keep running?

                    Why do you keep hiding?

Come back my breath,

                                   To care for me once more….

Come back my life,

                                   To make me dream once more….

                                                                                                Without wax,

                                                                                    TRIDIB

EXPECTATIONS

Never did I wait for so long,

Nor did any await seemed so prolonged,

Every time the phone rings, expectation rises,

Expectation…..that I’m not sure, there ought to be,

Expectation……that I’m not sure, what it meant to cost,

But still, there lingers on the expectation,

Expectation that you would stop playing with it,

Expectation that I would stop wandering in lost,

Never had any expectation been so high,

                     for something that I understand nothing….

                     for something that is long lost…….

                                                                                             Without wax,

                                                                                                      TRIDIB

Breaking.....

I was wondering, what kept her away...

As always, thinking the other way...

Trying to converge the dream unknown,

With the reality rarely shown,

Falling in love again and again...

Ever putting my heart in unbearable strain...

And she kept breaking it mercilessly,

Without ever thinking of my pain...

Is this what love means?

The await, the betrayl, the tears...still managing to dream,

Dream with hope which no one can explain?

                                        without wax....

                                                 TRIDIB

TO YOU DEAR

        Never did I think that she could hurt me, because she was the one person where i had always turned to when I needed a shoulder to heal my heart, a lap to have peace of mind, a friend to share feelings, or a sister to support in need......she is the only person whom i trusted with everything, whom i trusted ahead of all my love n crush, ahead of my blood relations even ahed of my own self......

        But what she did to me was probably nothing compared to what i did to her. I promised her, if someone ever broke her heart again, he/she will be answerable to me...now what, that I, myself have broken her heart....I promised i'll always be there to wipe her tears, bt what now that i myself have brought that tears? I can't even ask for forgiveness, because, i doubt if i can forgive it myself....maybe she'll move on, maybe she'll forget it, but can i forget this?

       The pride that let me to those words remain shattered....The dignity that let me to make promises now lay hidden somewhere, where i can't find it... I know it's my fault, i forgot what i'm risking, just because of my ego.........

       Hey dear, i know, i have no right to say sorry....i have no right to face you again....i have no right to make promises...but i'll try to keep those which i already made (i don't ask you to believe me, becaused i have no right to be believed....)

NEVER FALL IN LOVE

What do you do

                       when you hear the sound of your heart breaking

What do you say

                      when you see the picture of your love burning

What do you feel

                      when your eyes are dry,

                                 but your dream is flooded with tears……

The dry suffocating pain,

          As if a red hot iron pierced through your chest.

You cry for help,

          All that you get is a stare of ‘disgust at best’

The so hyped fantasy of romance

The so eager dream of a partner

          No reality you’ll find of it,

Broken and defeated,

Ashamed and submitted,

           Do you want to be in deep pit?

Colorful does it seem,

                                   to be in love.

Appealing does it look,

                                   to share your heart.

One advice brother,

                                   never fall in love.

One warning friend,

                                   never give away your heart.

                                           Without wax,

                                       TRIDIB

ALONE

When you cry for a single call,

When you despair for a single word,

The world seems to run after you,

Even God seems to stand against you.

You sense betrayal in every breath

You sense desperation in every moment,

You feel the life has lost you

Or you have lost the life

                                     that meant to be for you.

Still you keep on waiting,

            Still you keep on searching,

Hoping in the hopeless fight,

             Targeting the target less flight….

It is always what it is,

It was always what it is,

You know you have to swim across

                                      the never ending sea…..

You know you have to fight across

                                      the ever deepening pit….

Stand up, you have to stand tall,

You have to become your own lord….

Because,

                When you cry for a single call,

                When you despair for a single word,

                The world seems to run after you,

                Even God seems to stand against you.

                                   Without wax...

                                                                                          TRIDIB

WHY YOU?

Have you ever seen what it makes me of you?

Have you ever thought what it takes me to you?

The dual meaning words

                     that speak so much….

The unclear thoughts

                     that speak even more….

The questions unanswered,

The feelings unspoken,

Without speaking, you say so much,

Without listening, you hear so much.

Still, why can’t you hear me?

          Why can’t you say what you want to say?

The words that come from you heart,

            And you send them back from your mouth….

The intense cry from deep inside you,

                                       that you shout it out…

Still you manage to drink it all,

                                       in a single gulp….!!!

Did I ever ask you for an answer?

Did I ever force you for an acceptance?

The single answer you ever gave ---

                                      “you’ll find someone better”

The modesty with which you said,

The sound of heartbreak lying behind

                                        each of those words….

The voice that makes me dream

The attitude that makes me melt,

                                                still you ask “Why?”

Have you now seen what it makes me of you?

Have you now found what it takes me to you?

Without wax......

TRIDIB