Tridib Kalita...looking at u

TO YOU DEAR

        Never did I think that she could hurt me, because she was the one person where i had always turned to when I needed a shoulder to heal my heart, a lap to have peace of mind, a friend to share feelings, or a sister to support in need......she is the only person whom i trusted with everything, whom i trusted ahead of all my love n crush, ahead of my blood relations even ahed of my own self......

        But what she did to me was probably nothing compared to what i did to her. I promised her, if someone ever broke her heart again, he/she will be answerable to me...now what, that I, myself have broken her heart....I promised i'll always be there to wipe her tears, bt what now that i myself have brought that tears? I can't even ask for forgiveness, because, i doubt if i can forgive it myself....maybe she'll move on, maybe she'll forget it, but can i forget this?

       The pride that let me to those words remain shattered....The dignity that let me to make promises now lay hidden somewhere, where i can't find it... I know it's my fault, i forgot what i'm risking, just because of my ego.........

       Hey dear, i know, i have no right to say sorry....i have no right to face you again....i have no right to make promises...but i'll try to keep those which i already made (i don't ask you to believe me, becaused i have no right to be believed....)